Yay! And Boo. As in Boo-hoo.

Yay: Thanks to all of you for praying about this little one's position. Doctor has confirmed that head is definitely down and in the correct position! This is a huge relief to me. :)

Boo-hoo: We finally have an induction date scheduled. Ten days from now on October 17th. Due date was the 5th, and I was prepared for the 12th...but the 17th seems like light years away. My huge, hormonal, pregnant self has taken a while to get used to this "new" plan. It feels new because, as I mentioned, I had been planning around the 12th and thought that had given me plenty of the the extra time my body seems to require.

I am not looking forward to being around people for the next 10 days. Well-meaning, lovely people who will look at me with pity. I will either burst into tears or laugh like a crazy person each time I'm asked "when are you due?", "how much longer?", or "you STILL haven't had that baby?" Pray I will be gracious...and so will everyone else. :)

I'm trying to trust in my Savior at this time. He has proven so faithful, I shouldn't falter in my trust of Him in this. But it's hard. I want it to go MY WAY. I was reading in a devotional today, and it was like God whispering to my heart. It's written like Jesus is speaking to you. Here's an excerpt:

Accept each day just as it comes to you, remembering that I am sovereign over your life. Rejoice in this day that I have made, trusting that I am abundantly present in it. Instead of regretting or resenting the way things are, thank Me in all circumstances. Trust me and don't be fearful; thank Me and rest in my sovereignty.

And I couldn't help but jump over to read what it had to say on the 17th:

If you must consider upcoming events, follow these rules: 1. Do not linger in the future because anxieties sprout up like mushrooms when you wander there. 2. Remember the promise of my continued Presence; include me in any imagery that comes to mind. This mental discipline does not come easily because you are accustomed to being the god of your fantasies.

Ouch. That part stung because it's true. At least of me. I can linger in the future, with all it's "what ifs" and my worry can certainly grow there. And when I look ahead like that, I often forget to include God in that picture. I think of all the ways I will be handling the situation on my own. I really am "accustomed to being the god of my fantasies," and I stink at it.

Even if it has to be day by day, moment by moment, during the next 10 days, I am surrendering this to the Lord. I am surrendering my plans, my future, my worries, my fake god-ness. I'm choosing His glory over my own. And I am choosing to trust the One who knows me and loves me best.